From a Farmer's Hoe to a Computer Mouse（Excerpt) 從鋤頭到鼠標（节选）
November 28, 2004 | By Jianyu, a Falun Dafa practitioner from Jilin Province 文/吉林省大法弟子 建宇
(Clearwisdom.net)I am a practitioner from Jilin Province who started to cultivate Falun Dafa in 1998. I am a farmer in my thirties, living in a remote rural area. I have gone through much hardship since I was very young, and I have received little education. Living in poverty and in a spiritual void, I developed the bad habit of drinking to excess. In order to make money, I slaughtered sheep. I also often sold adulterated grains and cheated people by short-changing them. In my ignorance, I accumulated much karma.
In February 1998, I started to cultivate Falun Dafa. I finished reading the book Zhuan Falun in one sitting. I was very excited, having finally found my life's goal. I made up my mind to cultivate until I reached Consummation. To stop drinking was the first big obstacle I had to contend with. Because my desire for alcohol was so strong, on the first day that I stopped drinking, I couldn't even eat anything. With help from the mighty power of Dafa, I was able to pass the test after some very difficult struggles. Since that day, I have never again drunk any alcohol. I moved forward on my path of cultivation with a firm mind.
After I started to cultivate Falun Dafa, I got rid of bad habits and learned how to truly become a good person. I also helped people around me to learn Falun Dafa by buying books for them and providing a place for them to practice. I felt enriched spiritually every day. Then the persecution started on July 20, 1999, and I started my Fa-rectification cultivation.
Because there was a shortage of truth-clarifying materials, I asked some non-practitioners to print truth-clarifying fliers for me. They charged a high price, and I didn't have much money to spare, yet I could not find a better way, so I kept using my own money to pay the printing costs. Later on, I shared my experiences with some practitioners around me who had not stepped forward to validate Dafa, encouraging them to step forward so that we could clarify the truth together. Gradually more and more practitioners came out to validate Dafa, forming a large group locally, which powerfully suppressed the evil.
The local production site experienced many tribulations. Since 1999 it has been destroyed many times by the authorities. This created a huge negative impact on local Fa-validation work. My fellow practitioners became numb and passively withstood the persecution. For some time, the dark cloud of persecution covered the whole area. Most of the diligent practitioners who participated in the work of the productions site were arrested, resulting in a shortage of manpower. The remaining practitioners lacked experience and the necessary skills. We lost the source of truth-clarifying materials for the whole area, and everyone was worried. Having experienced many attacks, the local practitioners were all afraid and felt that there was nothing they could do.
Later the practitioner who had the skill to reach the Internet through the blockade was also arrested, and we could not even see the Minghui website anymore. Not knowing about the events transpiring in Fa-rectification or being able to read Teacher's new articles, we suffered greatly, as though we were blinded. Eventually a practitioner from another area heard about our situation, and helped us reach the Internet and produce truth-clarifying materials. The practitioner bought a computer and a printer for us, but no one knew how to use them. The available practitioners were either old or poorly educated, and most of us had never even touched a computer.
There was a struggle in my mind: although I was the appropriate candidate to learn the computer skills, I was very afraid, realizing that all the practitioners who had accessed the Internet for us had been arrested, and I would be no exception if I learned the skill. At that time I had just come from the local detention center, where I was so badly tortured that I lost consciousness several times. I was still under the shadow of the persecution. The struggle in my mind was very intense - to step back and protect myself in the face of hardship or to bravely step forward to learn how to get to the web, letting go of my attachment to life and death in order to serve Dafa. After a few days of struggle, I finally decided to learn the computer skills to reach the Internet....
When the practitioner put the computer and printer in front of me, I was overwhelmed. When the practitioner asked me if I knew how to use the mouse, I said with much difficulty, "I have never even touched one." Hearing that, the other practitioner felt nearly as helpless as I did. My heart was beating hard, and I said to myself, "The task of accessing the Internet for the whole area is now on my shoulders, and all the practitioners are eagerly waiting. What will happen if I cannot learn the skills? This is a huge responsibility!"
Having been a farmer all my life, I had spent most of my time doing hard physical labor. My palms are covered with thick calluses. I worked with hoes so much that my hands became stiff and distorted, and my fingers would not straighten. I have no trouble doing farm work, but manipulating a computer mouse is extremely difficult for me: I could not even double click on the left side of the rounded, slippery object. Opening a file was hard, and I could not double click on the icon after several attempts. To make things worse, my brain is not used to thinking about these tiny things. While the practitioner was teaching me, my brain was completely empty, and I could not remember a thing. As if all of this were not enough, the practitioner who came to teach me was very busy and had only three days to teach me the skills. I felt that learning how to use a computer was harder than ascending to heaven.
Later I reminded myself, "I am a Dafa practitioner, so I am capable of doing anything. I am doing the most righteous things, so I should eliminate all interference." In my heart, I asked, "Teacher, please help me." I tried to expel the notions and obstacles in my mind, such as, "I am a farmer, I have little education, and I am not intelligent enough." I reminded myself that I am a practitioner, so those factors could not restrain me. Finally, ... I learned the basic computer skills needed for copying files, typesetting, and printing in three days.
After that, the practitioner who taught me left, and I worked by myself on the computer for the first week. I finished the typesetting work without any difficulty, but I still had a lot to learn. I continued to learn how to download files, repair printers, and use common software. The more I learned, the more difficult the tasks ahead appeared. As I learned how to do all this, the practitioner who taught me would at times get impatient with me. Sometimes he criticized me sternly. I felt pretty sad and thought I was being treated unfairly. At times the idea of quitting came to mind, but I immediately realized that this idea was wrong, and I should look inward. This practitioner came from far away to teach me in order to serve the needs of Fa-rectification.
Slowly, I became familiar with computers and mastered the necessary skills required for what I needed to do. With the help of Teacher's law body and my fellow practitioners, I was able to struggle through the process of "going from a hoe to a computer mouse."
The above article is an excerpt from: http://en.minghui.org/emh/articles/2004/11/28/55023.html